For almost two years I have been on a long hiatus from my blog. I have been concentrating on caring for my ailing mother, working during a pandemic and finishing my last book in the series for Dimes, Profiles and Wives. It has been so well worth it though. I had some ups and downs, but for the most part my life has been full of joy, love and peace. One major downer though was the decision to divorce my husband.
Although he put on a major facade that he was in love with me for who I was, in the end I found out the hard way that his opportunistic and narcissistic ways were tearing me apart. Before him, I had not been in the hospital for almost ten years battling bipolar psychotic episodes. During our marriage, I was in and out of the hospital at least once a year for five years. That was too much, finally I had had enough and put a stop to the madness. I am happy to say I stepped up and out on faith, listened to the discerning spirit that I had been running from for years and ended it. I learned so many lessons in that relationship. I will write about it and tell the story one day. I want others who may feel trapped in a marriage, dealing with emotional, verbal or even physical abuse to be empowered so that they feel like they don’t have to put up with appearances to please everyone when in reality all it is doing is destroying their self worth.
Another downer is the fact that my mother is going through the pains of dealing with PSP. PSP is progressive supranuclear palsy which is in the family of Parkinson’s. There is really no formal treatment for it other than continued physical, occupational, and speech therapies. She has someone in and out of the house Tuesday through Friday helping her keep a stint of regular life for as long as she can. And as long as I can care for her safely we will be living together.
The greatest thing to happen is the completion of my first series. It was a long time coming but I finally got it finished and I believe the project is my best work. I put my best foot forward in this last book of the series. When you finally get into the nitty gritty of it all, you will be shocked, but delighted in the end. The girlfriends helped grow me into the woman I am today and showed me how to be real in the moment without sugar coating anything. My motto has been giving you the real testimonies in print while I create something new everyday. Well, these ladies' lives are testimonies of parts of my life and the lives of people that I know personally. Of course, embellishments sell and I would never throw anybody totally under the bus (but if you cross me you’ll probably die in print).
